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A Visit

I had a dream a couple of weeks ago that was very special, and brought me much peace.

I’ve handled the passing of my (favorite) kitty, Lily, better than I thought I would. I miss her every day, but I know we did the best for her always. When I went in to pick up her ashes, Dr. D pulled me aside to tell me that he truly felt that there was more going on with her than the thyroid tumor, and he was confident that surgery would not have given us more time, and easily could have shortened our time given her frailty. After hearing that, I let go of the guilt I’d been carrying about not opting for the surgery. I swear, when I walked into the house that day with her ashes in my arms, I felt her presence float away. Corny, I know. But I felt it.

I think of Lily every single day. I miss her every day. Months later, if I think too long about her, I’ll tear up and cry. Most days, I think of her swiftly to avoid the tears. I give longer snuggles to Jackson, Lily’s trusty companion, and I seek little Janie out more because I know she still misses her sister. Spending time with them is, in a way, spending time with Lily.

A few weeks ago, I had a very vivid dream. I woke up in tears, but happy tears. I dreamt that I was with my dad and Hottie, hanging out and chatting. All of a sudden, Lily sauntered in. We all knew that she was gone, and that this was a special visit.

“I think that’s Lily,” I whispered.

“It sure looks like Lily,” said my dad.

“Oh, that’s definitely Lily,” Hottie said.

I wanted to pet her, but was afraid she’d disappear, or worse, I’d wake up from this dream. Hottie encouraged me to pet her, he said she wanted love from her mom.

So I knelt down and pet her. I sunk my hand into her chinchilla fur.

I could literally FEEL her. I could hear her purring. I could feel her eyes burning into mine as I rubbed her and buried my face into her belly.

Slowly, we went from being on the floor to being in bed, with Lily under the covers as I rubbed her and loved her. And slowly, she faded away under the covers.

I woke up, rubbing the mattress, just as the dream ended.

I truly believe that Lily visited me in my dream that night. She came for that one last sleep that we never got to have together. She is such a good, loving girl.

(The gal who cared for Lily when we’d leave town asked me to stop by for a visit. I just left, with this special gift in hand. Tears all over again for my Lily girl.)


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Fitness Stat-urday – Week 3

Starting Statistics on 08/30/2014

  • Weight:  155 Pounds (took 0.6 pounds off during my stabilizing week)
  • Body Fat %:  25.1% (took 0.7% off during my stabilizing week)
  • BMI:  24.3
  • Predicted Weight from MyFit.nessP.al:  140 Pounds (targeting 1.5 pounds per week)

Goals for the Next 10 Weeks (Ending 11/08/2014)

  • Weight:  142.6 Pounds
  • Body Fat %:  22.1%
  • BMI:  22.3
  • Push-ups:  90
  • Sit-ups:  53
  • Mile Run Time:  7:26

Week Ending 09/27/2014

  • Week 3 Statistics
    • Weight: 151 Pounds
    • Pounds Lost or Gained:  0.8 Pounds lost
    • Body Fat %:  24.4%
    • Body Fat % Lost or Gained:  1.0%
    • BMI: 23.6
    • Workout Days (goal is 6 days):  6 Days
    • Time Spent Being Active:   7 Hours  15 Minutes
    • Average Number of Steps Per Day:  15,685
  • Food:  Hottie is out of town until late Thursday night.  I’m not expecting to cook much – I’m feeling quite tired this week.
    • Sunday – No real dinner (sick baby, things to get done before Hottie leaves town for the entire week, laundry from a puking kid, etc.)
    • Monday – Yogurt and an iced chai (I know, I know)
    • Tuesday – Chi.ck-Fil-A grilled nuggets and fruit bowl (and a cupcake – Jesus!)
    • Wednesday – Yogurt, oatmeal, and an iced chai (I was desperate)
    • Thursday – Margherita pizza, roasted Brussels sprouts, grilled corn
    • Friday – Pork and apple sliders
    • Saturday – Cheese fondue – yes – cheese fondue!
  • Exercise/ActivityWith Hottie out of town this week, it’s going to be hard to get morning runs in.  I’m planning on tackling this by running with Bryson while Matthew is at school.  Of course – Bryson is sick so maybe this won’t happen.
    • Sunday – Mowed the lawn (32 minutes) – 14,000 Steps
    • Monday – INSAN.ITY (43 minutes), walk around neighborhood (37 minutes) – 16,400 Steps
    • Tuesday – Morning run (42 minutes), morning walk (57 minutes)- 22,000 Steps
    • Wednesday – INSAN.ITY and KB (47 minutes), Bodypump (43 minutes), track walk (15 minutes) – 15,300 Steps
    • Thursday – INSAN.ITY and KB (47 minutes)- 14,300 Steps
    • Friday – Morning run (44 minutes), walking (29 minutes)- 20,800 Steps
    • Saturday – NONE – So Sick!- 7,000 Steps
  • Notes and findings: 
    • I have a serious sweet tooth this week – SERIOUS.  I need to stop indulging it no matter how many calories I burn in the day.
    • Running with Bryson while Matthew is in school is working out quite well.  I need to plan on that at least 1 of the school days each week.
    • I’ve come to realize that I just cannot put my kids in daycare at the Y unless it’s really necessary (meaning Tuesday nights for INSAN.ITY, Thursday morning for HEAT if Bryson isn’t napping, Friday nights for swim lessons, and other random times that I just need ‘me time.”).  I don’t want to dump Bryson there without Matthew Mon-Wed because that’s supposed to be our special time together, and I can’t justify putting Matthew in there Mon-Wed after going to school all morning.  I can get behind 3 sessions a week per child, but not more than that.  It just doesn’t feel right to me (but that is just me – no judgment if it feels right to you!).
    • The double nap is working out so well for me!  I am doing some KILLER workouts in my garage while the kids nap – and I’m going longer and harder than I would in a class at the Y.
    • Cross training is ESSENTIAL for me.  When I only did kickboxing, I plateaued.  When I only ran, my body always felt a little broken.  Now that I’m doing INSA.NITY, running, kickboxing, and weights – all within the same week – my body is getting rest where and when needed and I’m shocking it a pit, helping to keep the inevitable plateau at bay!
    • This week is shaping up to be a very productive one, and I did not expect that.  I feel motivated!
    • I am super thrilled to be in the 24.X percents for body fat, but do know that I could bounce back up to the 25’s easily enough.
    • I got a terrible chest cold at the end of the week, and spent much of Saturday sleeping and resting.  I hated taking a day off, but it was for the best.

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Fitness Stat-urday – Week 2 + 1

Starting Statistics on 08/30/2014

  • Weight:  155 Pounds (took 0.6 pounds off during my stabilizing week)
  • Body Fat %:  25.1% (took 0.7% off during my stabilizing week)
  • BMI:  24.3
  • Predicted Weight from MyFit.nessP.al:  140 Pounds (targeting 1.5 pounds per week)

Goals for the Next 10 Weeks (Ending 11/08/2014)

  • Weight:  142.6 Pounds
  • Body Fat %:  22.1%
  • BMI:  22.3
  • Push-ups:  90
  • Sit-ups:  53
  • Mile Run Time:  7:26

Week Ending 09/20/2014

  • Week 2+1 Statistics
    • Weight:  151.8 Pounds
    • Pounds Lost or Gained:  1.8 Pounds lost
    • Body Fat %:  25.4%
    • Body Fat % Lost or Gained:  0.8% gained
    • BMI: 23.8
    • Workout Days (goal is 6 days):  6 Days
    • Time Spent Being Active:  7 Hours 02 Minutes
    • Average Number of Steps Per Day:  16,100
  • Food:  After coming home from vacation, it’s time to get back on the healthy food bandwagon.  When we cook at home, the rule is still paleo – ALWAYS.  We don’t bring grains or potatoes or any processed foods into our house.  When we eat out, we eat paleo 50% of the time – and try to keep the non-50% as healthy as the menu allows.  The kids eat paleo at all times – when eating in or out.  Actually – they eat paleo 100% of the time unless Bryson is teething something fierce and needs crusty bread to gnaw on.
    • Sunday – Chip.otle dinner – because the kids love it and we love them!
    • Monday – Shrimp tacos and French onion soup out (so NOT paleo)
    • Tuesday – Rotisserie chicken breast and peas
    • Wednesday – Paleo chicken non-tortilla soup
    • ThursdayCoconut corn chowder with shrimp (NOT paleo  but it is our only sweet corn all year!) – I subbed heavy whipping cream for 1/2 of the 2 cups of milk, I used 2% milk (they don’t specify), I added dried parsley and paprika, I sautéed up 10 shrimp to toss in at the very end, and I used an emersion blender instead of my food processor.  It was EXCELLENT!  Oh – and we topped it off with a touch of sour cream when we served it.
    • Friday – Pan.era soup and salad
    • Saturday – Dinner at my folks’ (beef tenderloin is all I know so far)!
  • Exercise/Activity: Back at it and working at a very intense level.  A quick note – I won the steps challenge I was randomly put in by Garm.in last week, and that included this Sunday’s all-time low of 10,000 steps (challenges run Mon-Sun).  That was pretty exciting (not really).
    • Sunday – None – travel day- 10,000 Steps
    • Monday – Morning run (43 minutes), mowed the lawn (40 minutes) – 18,600 Steps
    • Tuesday – Morning walk (106 minutes), INSAN.ITY class (40 minutes) – 24,000 Steps
    • Wednesday – Kickboxing (40 minutes) – 14,400 Steps
    • Thursday – Evening run (33 minutes), walk (13 minutes) – 16,500 Steps
    • Friday – INSAN.ITY at home (47 minutes), walk (25 minutes) – 16,000 Steps
    • Saturday – Afternoon walk (35 minutes)- 13,200 Steps
  • Notes and findings: 
    • It was time for new running shoes – my ankles and knees are killing me.  I found my $160 Asi.cs for $90 at Ama.zon.  WIN!  The new running shoes are so nice – totally worth the $160 I didn’t pay for them!  I would pay full price in the future if I had to – they’re that great!
    • Matthew was having a hell of a time falling asleep for his nap on Thursday, which meant I couldn’t go out to the garage and kick and hit the bag (it’s super loud).  I really wanted to workout though, so I started the interval timer and led myself through an INSAN.ITY workout that I remembered from the class at the Y.  I’ll do that again – it was quiet, still got my aggressions out, and burned over 500 calories in 47 minutes.  And let me just note that that interval timer is the gift to myself that keeps on giving!
    • I gained 0.8% body fat, which makes sense given I lifted no weights this week and the adjustment back from vacation.  25.4% is a rather realistic number for how I look right now, so I like it better than the lower numbers from before that gave me false confidence.    I feel like this is a “corrected” number from the change to athlete mode on the fat monitor, the change in how I hold the fat monitor, and a return from vacation.
    • Wow – 1.8 pounds shed over my pre-vacation weight – I could not be happier with this +1 week to get back to where I was before we left town.  I’m actually where I wanted to be (152 pounds) at the end of week 3, but I’ll keep the +1 week because of the body fat correction.

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Success On Many Fronts

We’re home from our trip.

There is so much to say about our time away:

I cried in the driveway but never again, I SPENT HOURS AND HOURS PUMPING WITH A PLUGGED DUCT, we ate like fools (and kings), WE WALKED EVERYWHERE, the festival made us feel old and off our games, WE MET UP WITH OUR FUN FRIENDS 3 OF THE 4 DAYS THERE, Bryson got very sick with a nasty fever and vomiting but recovered after 2 days, BOTH BOYS DID JUST FINE WITHOUT US, my in-laws were exhausted when we got home, WE ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT PART OF COLORADO, we had the time of our lives together, I “DONATED” MY PUMPED MILK AFTER BEING DISTRAUGHT OVER DUMPING 11 OUNCES DOWN THE DRAIN, Bryson did not wean himself one bit while I was gone (yay!), WE ALMOST FORGOT TO CALL HOME ON SATURDAY, neither of us slept well at all, WE’RE READY TO TAKE ANOTHER TRIP WITHOUT THE BOYS, we fell in love all over again.

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Fitness Stat-urday – Week 2

Starting Statistics on 08/30/2014

  • Weight:  155 Pounds (took 0.6 pounds off during my stabilizing week)
  • Body Fat %:  25.1% (took 0.7% off during my stabilizing week)
  • BMI:  24.3
  • Predicted Weight from MyFit.nessP.al:  140 Pounds (targeting 1.5 pounds per week)

Goals for the Next 10 Weeks (Ending 11/08/2014)

  • Weight:  142.6 Pounds
  • Body Fat %:  22.1%
  • BMI:  22.3
  • Push-ups:  90
  • Sit-ups:  53
  • Mile Run Time:  7:26

Week Ending 09/11/2014 (the week ended early due to vacation)

  • Week 2 Statistics
    • Weight: 153.6 Pounds
    • Pounds Lost or Gained:  1.4 Pounds Lost
    • Body Fat %:  24.6%
    • Body Fat % Lost or Gained:  0.1% Lost
    • BMI: 24
    • Workout Days (goal is 6 days):  7 Days
    • Time Spent Being Active:  8 Hours 15 Minutes
    • Average Number of Steps Per Day:  17,328 Steps
  • Food:  This week was tricky since we headed out of town (sans kids!) on Thursday.  Dinner reservations were made without concern to the menu and being Paleo.  We were hoping to do lots of walking, to hopefully balance everything out in the end.
    • Sunday – Soccer night = easy dinner = pizza out (thin crust veggie)
    • Monday – Dinner out consisting of a fabulous Paleo salad
    • Tuesday – Pear and Ground Pork Stuffed Winter Squash
    • Wednesday – Meatballs and Carrots
    • Thursday – VACATION
    • Friday – VACATION
    • Saturday – VACATION
  • Exercise/Activity: I have found some group fitness classes at our resort in Teluride that I plan to attend (and drag Hottie to with me).  We solely depended on lots of walking to keep us active, but as expected, these numbers did go down this week (except for the amount of steps!).
    • Sunday – Mowing the lawn and some yard work (40 minutes) – 10,800 Steps
    • Monday – Morning run (43 minutes), strength training (42 minutes) – 18,100 Steps
    • Tuesday – Morning run (44 minutes), INSANITY (37 minutes), walking (11 minutes) – 22,000 Steps
    • Wednesday- Morning run (52 minutes) – 19,000 Steps
    • Thursday- Morning run (46 minutes) – 16,000 Steps
    • Friday- Hours of walking (90 minutes) – 18,200 Steps
    • Saturday- Hours of walking (90 minutes) – 17,200 Steps
  • Notes and findings: 
    • So I’m running in the mornings now.  I really enjoy it!  Bryson and I go out as the sun comes up and get 3+ miles in whenever the weather cooperates.  I don’t have a set running schedule, and I’m not trying to become a fast runner.  I just want to get out there and do it!
    • Because we’re heading out of town without the kids on Thursday, I don’t want to drag them to the Y every day.  They need time with Mom and Dad before the big departure.  I’m counting on my running, one class at the Y, walking with Bryson while Matthew’s in school, resistance bands at home, and our KB bag to keep me active and productive!
    • We ate dinner before INSANITY on Tuesday and that was a mistake.  Tuesday is now soup night and we’ll eat after class.
    • All stats are from Thursday, 09/11/2014, because I didn’t have access to scales or body fat measurements while in Telluride
    • I did weigh myself after coming home and vacation cost me only 1.8 pounds – not awful!
    • I am adding a week to this little challenge of mine to give myself next week to recover and bounce back from vacation – next week’s post will be considered Week 2+1

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