All the Sun For You

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A Moment

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I feel like a stranger in this place.  I’ve been gone so long.  Why am I writing now, when the kids will be up any minute from their naps?  Why do I feel the need right now to visit this place?

This moment, I am not holding a teething toddler, trying to get him to nap just a little bit longer.  This moment, I am not on the treadmill.  This moment, I am not updating my sales spreadsheet.  This moment, I am not laying beside Matthew as he naps, catching a little snooze myself.  This moment, I have a moment… all to myself.

I’ve been busy (like everyone else).  I’ve gotten your messages – the messages from my blog friends asking where I’ve been.  I’ve tried to respond, but I’m never at a REAL computer and my kids nag me for my phone the minute they see it.  I’ve been busy with spring, cleaning and training and running kids around.  I’ve been selling stuff left and right, and can’t stop because good God, I love the money but I love the freed up space even more!  I’ve been nursing a running injury that seems to be healing but I’m ever so tentative with it, worried it will rear it’s ugly (painful) head again.  I’ve been connecting, and reconnecting, and connecting some more with Hottie.  We’ve really gotten into a great routine of focusing on each other and not just our kids.  Have we FINALLY arrived at that happy place?  I think so.  I’ve been fostering friendships with other moms, the moms from preschool that I always said I’d connect with but never did(until now).  I’ve been making new friends with the moms I’ve met on the FB swaps (seriously, one of my newest, greatest friends was met through a sale of the boys’ old clothes!), remembering what it’s like to be social and happy and carefree with other people.  I’ve been consistently taking care of my skin for the first time in my life!  I’ve just been… living!

But I do miss this place.  I feel bad that Bryson’s life isn’t documented here like Matthew’s was (however, his life is much more captured on FB than Matthew’s was at this age).  I miss interacting with my friends here, but also know that FB has taken most of the place of that because I’m FB “friends” with most of you!  I miss just taking the time to pound on the keys, getting my thoughts documented so that some day, when I care to look back on these days, I have something tangible to pull up and help me remember the highs and lows.

I’m not going to promise that I’ll be back, but I do promise to try.  Because I want to be back.  I just don’t seem to have the time.

 

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Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

11 thoughts on “A Moment

  1. Hi hon. Glad to see you here.
    Add me on FB 🙂

  2. Thanks for stopping in for a quick hello! I love that so much seems right in your world and you have stepped away from this space to LIVE and enjoy these days with your boys. I hope you’ll be back from time to time, but I also understand how life just takes over sometimes. And glad I get to see the boys and you on FB still!

    • I MISS chatting with you! We need to get a good chat going soon! and… I’m trying to plan a weekend to KC without the boys… all three of them!!!!!!!

  3. I was so excited when you popped up in my reader!! And now I’m wishing I had FB to keep in touch better when you aren’t writing so much.
    I get that life is busy, and I think it’s awesome that you are busy living!! I love how happy your words were today, and I think that’s just about the most awesome update I could have read!! Check in whenever you have time or you want to, but honestly, just keep living because I’m pretty sure you will never regret it!!

  4. Glad to hear from you, I had been wondering what you’ve been up to. I’d like to connect with you on FB! 🙂

  5. Hello! I feel like because I speak to you in other ways I haven’t missed you here but I was pretty happy to see a post pop up. xxxx

  6. Ditto what Chon said 🙂 Always nice to see more fleshed out thoughts here than I get to see on Facebook 🙂

  7. Live life and enjoy it. We will be here when/if you have time.

  8. I’m glad to read an update from you! Sounds like your days are filled with your boys, hubby, health and friends, which are all terrific things! 🙂

  9. I read this after I talked to you on FB yesterday but it was nice to see you “around” again anyway!

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