We started PIO shots last night.  I am two nights into this and hopefully we have 3 more months ahead of us.  They are easy, but they’re not easy.  Psyching myself up for each one is a struggle and then it ends up being no big deal.  B is a wonderful shot-giver and makes it painless, for the most part.  I remember us hitting a vein (or whatever) a few times and that hurts – so I’m always worried that will happen.  That’s crazy because seriously, it happened only 3-4 times in all the PIO shots we did in the past 3 cycles.  That’s not a lot.

Transfer is on Friday.  My favorite embryologist (H) called me today to discuss which embryos to use.  We have 2 from Matthew’s cycle, and 5 from our first cycle.  I told her to use the ones she thinks are the best – that I trust her judgement.  And I do.  I found the conversation interesting because no one, in all the blogs I’ve read, has ever mentioned collaborating with the embryologist on which embryos to use.  I asked H a week or so ago which ones she wanted to use and bless her heart, she decided to involve me in the decision.  I just love the people at this clinic!

I did ask H a favor.  They don’t usually give you photos of your frozen embryos at our clinic because, “they can be worrisome to people because they don’t look like fresh embryos,” but I asked her to make an exception for me and she said yes.  I think it’s important to have that first photo just in case it works out.  How can I tell our next baby that I don’t have a photo of them as an embryo, but we have one of Matthew?

I also learned that we have 3 embryos in their own straws.  This is very important!  We have 2 straws with two embryos, and three with just one in each.  This is important as they thaw those straws with pairs – and what if one survives the thaw and one does not?  Do you thaw the other pair then too and what if those both survive, leaving three alive?  Now that I know about the singles, I am much more at ease about this and H assured me that we should not end up with 3 unless something “very unusual” happens.  Crisis averted!  (I was actually getting pretty worried about this, but now I’m not.)

Everything else is rather calm over here.  Matthew is a bit sick – not sure what’s going on there.  I’m bracing myself for a bad day tomorrow given that he’s had runny diapers all day and a snotty nose.  He’s been especially tired as well (3.75 hours of naps today) so I’m not sure what tomorrow will bring.

I lied.

Things are not 100% calm.  I setup my password for my PWP posts on October 1, feeling like the inevitable was about to happen, and shit hit the fan on the 5th in regards to holiday planning.  I am not directly involved, but it’s irritating and upsetting.  I will be posting about it, but I’m too exhausted from it right now to write about it.  I am not stressed about it – just so sick and tired of things being so hard with my family.  Ugh.

Besides that, though, things are good.  HA!