We’re talking about weaning. I dropped the morning wake-up nursing yesterday and it went OK (once there was a yogurt distraction). I dropped it because it wasn’t needed after having fed Bryson just 2 hours earlier, not really because I wanted to start weaning. But it went well so I’m going to try to be consistent.
Tonight, as I was sobbing about Lily, B took Bryson for bedtime books and then decided to rock him. He fell asleep, and is sleeping soundly. If OK with B, I’d like to make this a routine.
Dropping that bedtime feeding last with Matthew hurt my heart. I still cry thinking about the last time I nursed him. The last time I nursed Bryson to sleep may just be last night, when he slept all night with me in a hotel bed, nursing off and on. It was our best hotel night to date with him, and being perfectly honest, I really enjoyed it! If that’s our last nurse-to-sleep at bedtime feeding, then what a sweet memory for me. I’m happy with it. No tears.
Of course tonight may be a fluke and I may be nursing him to sleep again tomorrow. But tonight may be the first of many nights of B putting Bryson to bed, and that’s ok with me. It really is.
July 6, 2014 at 10:44 am
weaning is such a bittersweet thing. For me, the anticipation of doing it was worse than actually doing it though. I hope the same for you. ❤
July 6, 2014 at 9:16 pm
I can’t even think about what it will be like when I/Callen weans. The thought of it right now brings tears to my eyes. Breastfeeding him has been such a healing experience since I struggled so much breastfeeding Aiden. I do often wonder though how the weaning will happen, if it will be me or his decision, etc. I do know that I want at least one more baby, but in order to do that and start fertility meds again I have to be done breastfeeding. It’s so hard because what if we don’t get #3 and I weaned him before either of us was ready to be done breastfeeding? UGH. Stupid infertility, none of us should have to be in a position to make those kinds of decisions. Hope it goes smoothly for you.