We had a bit of a scare yesterday – and I’ll start by saying that everything is fine.
I had an earlier start than normal yesterday morning because Matthew and I were both ready to get the day started. B had taken off for the gym at 5:30 and I never really fell back asleep after he left, so by the time Matthew got up at 7:00 and finished breakfast and his normal Curious George viewing by 8:15, we were ready to get a move-on!
As I hopped in the shower, I wondered why I hadn’t felt Bryson move yet. I thought and thought about the last time I felt him move, and the last time was around 11:30 the night before. I didn’t panic, but was a bit concerned. As we showered, I thought back to when I got up to use the bathroom at 3:00 and again at 5:30 that morning, and realized that despite his normal routine, Bryson didn’t move. As I tried not to freak out and rush our shower, my mind was racing as I was trying to shake Bryson awake. Nothing was working.
When we finished up, I promptly got Matthew dressed and then downed a bunch of cold water. Nothing. I texted B that I needed him home and why. I tried calling him too. He wasn’t responding. I leaned up against the bathroom counter which always gets Bryson riled up, and again – nothing. I laid on the floor and had Matthew sit on my belly (Bryson hates that), and again – nothing. I laid on my side in the bed and talked to B long enough to just tell him to get home NOW, and again – nothing. Back to the bathroom counter I went and I thought maybe I felt something, but then realized it was my pulse I was feeling. My mind kept going to those awful places you can’t help, and I was feeling scared that we were maybe in some trouble.
I don’t do kick counts with this baby. I did with Matthew since he didn’t move a ton, but Bryson is so predictable. I ALWAYS know the last time I felt him moving because he’s moving, and kicking the hell out of me, all the time. When I get up to use the restroom in the night, he wakes up too. When I get up to check on Matthew when he’s sick, Bryson gets up too. The minute I’m up in the morning, he’s up and making his presence known very firmly, and for hours at a time. He’s an active baby. Realizing that I’d felt nothing from him in over 9 hours was freaking me out, especially when my efforts at waking him up were going un-noticed by him.
As I stood at that bathroom counter, wondering if I should call the doctor (in two pregnancies so far, I’ve only called the doctor once with a concern), the phone rang. It was the triage nurse – B had called her after we hung up. She asked what was going on, asked if I was doing kick counts (I explained why I don’t need to – and why I was freaking out), and told me what she wanted me to do. I was to eat something high in sugar, drink more cold water, and lay down for up to an hour, or until I felt 10 movements. I know all of this, and was trying it leading up to this point (besides the sugar because we don’t have that stuff in the house), but I really needed to just FOCUS and not have a toddler to tend to. I ate Matthew’s rejected blueberries and a banana and got in bed just as B was getting home. He came home to me in tears, waiting desperately for some movement. I asked him to get me a super icy water bottle and with that and the banana, Bryson finally woke up. He wasn’t near as active as he usually is, but as time went on, he got stronger and I only counted the good kicks because I wasn’t messing around with this. It took 16 minutes from the first strong kick to the 10th – so that’s pretty good. I laid there longer just letting him beat on me… feeling good knowing he was OK. (And I called the nurse back, letting her know that things were fine.)
After that, our day really started and we had a great day. I think it’s amazing how quickly things can go from a complete panic attack to perfectly fine. All I needed was for my baby to move like he usually does and I could move on.
What did come from all of this is B’s realization that we really are close to having this baby and he needs to keep his phone with him and turned up at all times, my realization that we must keep something sugary in the house in case this happens again (my awesome neighbor gave me a Snic.kers bar for this – and it’s been hard not eating it!), and… I finally packed for the hospital. Because this baby is REAL and he is coming any time now. I’ll be 36 weeks this Saturday, and he truly could make an appearance at any point in time.
What did I pack? I want to list it here in case we have another baby in a couple of years. With Matthew, I just packed shit – lots of it. I didn’t need a bunch of it so I’m not doing that this time around. I was very methodical:
- 3 of my own maternity/nursing hospital gowns (I highly recommend these – they’re pretty and more comfortable!)
- 5 baby nightgowns (all worn by Matthew – they are so cute!)
- 2 muslin swaddling blankets
- 2 swaddlers just in case he’s good at getting his hands out of the hospital blankets used to swaddle him
- 2 “coming home” outfits for Bryson (I will decide which one he wears once he’s born)
- 1 “coming home” hat for Bryson
- 1 pair of “coming home” booties for Bryson
- 2 newborn baby hats for photos (thank you, Etsy!)
- 1 special blanket for Bryson (bought this today at my favorite baby boutique – yay!)
- Ear plugs (B will be with me and can wake me when Bryson wakes up in the night)
- Contact solution, case, toothbrush, toothpaste, makeup, hair products, lip balm, etc.
- Med.ela hydrogel pads for relieving sad nipples
I will pack an outfit for me to come home in later on – I need to keep wearing my faves for now!
Today has been much better – Bryson is back to his normal self and beating me up for hours at a time. I prefer it this way!