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Happy VLOGiversary, PAIL!


PAIL Bloggers is 6 months old – which means I’ve been blogging for 6 months.  PAIL is near and dear to me because the creation of it is what got me to start blogging in the first place.  Thank you, PAIL!

This month’s theme post was supposed to be a VLOG entry – so that readers could see and hear us.

I failed miserably at this assignment – and not because I was hesitant to film myself.  The long and short of it is that I do not know how to make a video on my computer.  I can take a video with my phone (of other people) with no problems, but I wouldn’t know where to begin with my webcam, software, etc.  My tech support guy (B) has been very busy this week and working into the evenings, so the idea of even bothering him with it while he’s dealing with work stuff was a fleeting one.

But I will answer the questions – because I am a joiner (even if I have to do it in a weird way!)  😉

1) What country do you live in? If you feel comfortable sharing, what state or region as well?

We live in the United States – in the middle of it – in Iowa – in the middle of it – in Des Moines.

2) What is your favorite “ordinary moment” of the day?

This is an easy one for me.  My favorite “ordinary moment” of the day is when I go in to get Matthew up from his nap, and he chit chats with me, his Boo monkey, his Max monkey, and whatever kitties of ours are in the room.  He wakes up so happy from naps and that makes me happy!  He’ll sit in his crib for up to 5 minutes chatting me up and showing me all of his crib friends who napped with him.  It’s adorable.  I love Matthew’s voice more than anything and after his naps, he loves to use it.  It’s like he’s telling me all about his dreams or something.  It’s magical!

3) What is the first thing you do with your little one in the morning?

The very first thing we do is get his milk ready and then go in and pluck him out of his crib and bring him into bed with us to watch an episode of Curi.ous Geo.rge with the lights dim.  At least two of our three cats are always on the bed at a given time, so it’s the only time of day that our bed is truly a family bed.  We all love it – and B & I wish that Matthew would stay tuned into CG a little longer than just one segment.  Matthew snuggles up to B and they sit with their arms around each other, and I get random hugs and kisses from Matthew throughout the episode.  It’s great fun!

4) What has infertility changed the most about you?

Infertility has made me a better parent.  I truly believe this.  Our struggle to get Matthew taught me patience and the acceptance of lack of control, and both of those things have carried over into my parenting.  As I posted the other day, I am much more patient than I ever thought I would be and I accept things for what they are much more readily than I did in the past.  IF taught me that there are just some things we can’t control – and if we feel we can – then that is just an illusion of control.  I needed to learn this.  I make way fewer spreadsheets now than I did prior to IF.  What does THAT tell you?

5) What do you wish people knew about pregnancy or parenting through the ALI journey?

The second I read this question a week ago, I knew my answer.  And my answer is simple.  I wish that people struggling with ALI in the moment could know, and truly believe, that in the end, most of us get to where we want to be.  You could have told me this when we were struggling and I would have rolled my eyes at you.  But the statistics are in our favor – eventually.  Some way, some how, most of us get to be parents.  The road may be ugly, and it will never be forgotten, but most of us get there.

Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

19 thoughts on “Happy VLOGiversary, PAIL!

  1. OH I’m sad I didn’t get to see your video…here’s your assignment…when B has time, retroactively record your vlog reading these answers. LOL I totally get it…took me a while to figure the whole thing out….

    I love your answers….I’m loving this little insight into everyone’s lives….I didn’t know PAIL is what got you blogging…That’s awesome! So cool. I’m more grateful for PAIL than anything. It has gotten me through so SO much!!

  2. I just watched Stephs video and realize that sure, I should have just used my normal camera. Sorry! I’ll make it up to you, PAIL, with a video some other time.

  3. Sorry you couldn’t get a vlog in (maybe another time??) but it was still great to read all of your answers! An ordinary day and first time in the morning at your house sounds absolutely perfect. Him chatting away in his crib? Adorable!! And those morning snuggles? To die for!

    Truly believe that IF has made me a better parent too. Actually a better person in so many many ways. So in that way, somehow, as weird as it seems to say , it is all worth it. Well of course it is worth it for the end result, but I mean, if we were going to get children in someway anyway, I am glad it happened this way because I truly believe I am a better mum because of IF.

    Thanks so much for sharing your answers even if you weren’t able to get a vlog in!!! 🙂

  4. The last sentence – so true – ugly yes but in some way then majority of us will get there. Where’s your viddddddeo!!!

  5. The last sentence – so true – ugly yes but in some way then majority of us will get there. Where’s your viddddddeo!!!

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  7. Yah, I just used my phone video (slightly distracting watching myself the entire time and trying to hold the phone as far from my face as possible, buuuut whatevs.) so I’m bummed you didn’t do one, but your answers are great anyway. Yes, that last line is so classic. I am going to try to remember that. Thanks for sharing that. Oh, and aren’t little voices the best? THE BEST. I love love hearing my girls say something and realizing that those are their actual little voices. Such a cool thing.

  8. Oooh – I like that you took #5 in a totally different direction than I had thought of. That is SO true!

    Your morning routine sounds so lovely. 🙂

  9. loved you answers, bummed we didn’t get to see your video! 🙂

  10. Heh! I am glad you still participated this way, but I really wanted to see a video where your webcam falls over 45 times 😉

    I love your answer to #4 the most – this is something we talk about a lot, and something you are teaching me still. The amount over which we have control (IF or not, but especially with how *other* people feel about it) is so small, and to work on letting it go and just working on what we can control – ourselves. Ironically, I know make *more* spreadsheets now though and I blame you directly. 🙂


  11. Chloe does the same thing, jumps up from a nap to start pointing at our dogs or any stuffed animal she can get her hands on. I love the sentence “it’s like he’s telling me all about his dreams.” So cute!

    Fewer spreadsheets??? You? No way! 

    I agree with your last answer; ours are very similar.

    Missed seeing your face along with Matthew’s. I know Chloe sure was looking forward to it.

  12. I’m glad that I already know what you sound like, otherwise I’d have been pissed to not see you “for real!” 🙂 I tried to use my computer first but could not figure out how to get it to work. So I switched to my phone. Hence the poor quality and the super close-up shot. 😉 But, hey, it worked!

    I love your answer to number 5. It’s not always true, but, you’re right, it USUALLY is, in some way or another. I think that’s a good thing for people to know – that maybe the final product won’t look quite like what you initially imagined, but you will likely get there SOMEHOW, SOME WAY.

    P.S. When people here in Spain ask me where I’m from in the States, I always say: “St. Louis, Missouri. Right in the middle.” Ha!

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