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Even For Us


After posting yesterday, I read a post from Belle and it really made me want to POAS.  I mean, it was an urge like no other.  At 3.75dp5dt – I just had to do it.  (How crazy is that?)

Once the deed was done (third pee of the day – after only 2 hours of build-up time), I felt instantly better.  All my tension had been released.  Even before seeing the control line, I felt GOOD.  I could move on with my day.

After 3 minutes, I checked that little test and I thought I saw a shadow of a line – but I’m a veteran – I know where those lines are supposed to be.  My eyes were probably putting that second line there.  So I assumed it was a “crazy lady line” and moved on with my day.  It was so crazy that I told myself I would not even show it to B, because it’s not really there and he’ll think I’m… CRAZY.

I swore to SRB that I wouldn’t POAS again until this morning.

And then I headed to Tar.get for more tests because I was clean out and I wanted to be prepared for today with FMU and a batch of tests (of course, right?).

I texted my “bad influence” friend who always encourages me to test early.  😉  (K – I love you!)  I told her about my crazy line and she asked if I’d test later that night.  No – I’ll wait.  She said to test.  I knew she would say that – and that may be why I texted her in the first place.

The evening came and I was feeling great – didn’t even mention my crazy (non-existent) line to B.  No problem.

But then, as Matthew was being all cute and loving – I felt like I was cheating on him thinking about the possibility of Baby #2.  And just like that, I had to POAS again.  I had just used the bathroom an hour earlier, and didn’t even need to really pee – I just had to POAS.  I quietly excused myself (I slow-ran down the hallway = PATHETIC!).

I returned with stick in hand – there was a line.  I saw it, B saw it, it shows up on photos.  At 4.3dp5dt (we transferred at 2:30 PM on Friday), I had my definitive BFP!  I then showed B the “crazy lady” test from earlier in the morning (3.75dp5dt) and he saw it rather easily.  I knew ALL day that I was pregnant – but I didn’t let myself really KNOW IT!

Of course I tested this morning and the line is even darker.  5dp5dt (I am no longer splitting hairs and saying 4.7dp5dt – OK – that’s the last one, I promise!) and I have a BFP.  It has never happened this early!

I know it’s early – we’ve been here before.  As B said last night, we are tentative until we hear the number from the doctor.  But this is a great start!

For now – the FET worked.  That is all I need – to know that it works – that it can work – even for US!

Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

61 thoughts on “Even For Us

  1. Goosebumps, goosebumps!! I love that you slow-ran down the hall, I can just picture it! Have I said I’m excited for you yet? No? Not even once? Ok, I am beyond words ecstatic for you!!!!! Love to you all!

  2. Didn’t even read the post yet… just going to reiterate what I said in email:




  3. HOLY SHIT!!!! AMAZING news! Congrats!

  4. GAH! SQUEEEEEEE! I am so excited! Pictures pleased? I shared my pee with the world, you should do the same 🙂

    • Hey there! I put it on my TTC page 😉

      YOU are the reason I tested early. I was all, “Belle has a squinter – maybe I do. I should check!” I had very noticable spotting on Monday right at 2:30 (3 days to the minute post transfer) and I always do with pregnancies (even the one that didn’t make it), so I figured I MAY see something.

      Thank you for the encouragement.. the encouragement you didn’t even know you were giving me 😉

      I am more excited for you, really! I cannot get over your BFP! THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE ONE!

  5. SOOOOOOOOO happy for you, my dear! This is such good news. I understand wanting the official number from the doc, but it certainly sounds like you are off to a resoundingly good start! HUGS! HUGE ONES!

  6. HAHAHA. I LOVE that you slow ran down the hallway. When I got a faint positive at 12dpIUI, I didn’t tell Charlie either, but at 12.5dpIUI I tested again — THEN showed him both tests. 🙂 CONGRATS!!!!

  7. You crazy girl. 😉 This is stellar news. Like, makes my Wednesday a cheesy grin happy day kind of day. Congratulations!!

    • Thank you! I just can’t believe it! But it’s early… it’s early. Been there, done that! But – it’s Matthew’s cryo twin and has the same due date as we had for him. I think that means something!

  8. Wooooo hoooooo! Congratulations! Such fabulous news. I’m so happy for you! Sending sticky vibes your way.

  9. Yay! Congrats on the good news!

  10. Aaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!! aaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! *deep breath in* AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

  11. Oh I’m so happy for you….I’m so glad it works for someone!! If we ever get to do another FET I hope your experience will be an inspiration….CONGRATS! You EARNED THIS!!!

  12. Fantastic news!!! I’m so happy for you and your husband. 🙂

    Excuse me while I go buy stock in pee sticks.

    • As you should… I need MORE sticks! I thought about that this morning, that FRER, in particular, makes a killing off of crazy women. “$8 for 2? Who cares – they’re the best! I’ll take 3 packs, thank you very much!” Geesh!

      Thank you!

  13. Wahooooooo!!! So happy for you!!!

  14. Wooooot! Freakin’ stellar news! Congrats!

  15. That’s the BEST news I’ve heard all day! SO super excited for you, you DESERVE it! Lol 🙂

  16. Happiest of thoughts to you both! I’m hoping for continued good news for you guys. Here’s to a MUCH easier round 2 hopefully!

    • Thank you! Can you believe it seems to have been just THAT easy? You and BB lived through the hell of it with us the first time – and thank you for that and all the support you gave us! True friends!

  17. YAY!!!!! Congratulations!

  18. Congrats! I’m 6dp5dt and am now getting antsy, but scared that I’ll be the one who did an FET last week and comes up with nothing. Best wishes to you!

    • Thank you! But let me just say – I worried about the same thing. But remember that my results have NOTHING to do with yours. I would see people get BFP’s recently and fleetingly think, “I hope that’s not my BFP and now I’ll be the 50% with a BFN.” But then I quickly remembered that it does not work that way. AT ALL. You are just as likely to have good luck too!

      Best wishes to you too! I’ll be following to see how it goes, and also lend support!

  19. WOOHOOOOO!!!!! I’m so happy for you!!! Can’t wait to hear about the beta!

  20. Duuuuuuude told ya I had good feelings!!!!!!!!!! Awesome amazing and totally thrilled!

  21. Wooohoooooooooo! Congratulations!!!!!!! Best news all week!

  22. Waaaahooooooo!!!!! Yipppppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Wholly shitballs girl! You’re knocked up again!!

    • So far, so good! We shall see with the beta. The nervousness of my last FET (empty sac) is starting to set in a bit, but HPT’s are getting darker every day, so I’m trying to ignore the doubt.

  23. COURTNEY!!! Congratulations!! OMG so exciting, I’m heading over to your page to see the pic and I can’t wait to hear your beta #!! When is your beta?

  24. Wow, wow, wow! I KNEW it was going to happen for you. I am beyond thrilled for your family. Congratulations!!!

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  26. I missed this post! Congratulations!!! How amazing!!!!

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