I am so relaxed about this cycle, that I was wrong last night when I said my ultrasound and blood work would be today. They’re tomorrow. As of right now, my lady bits are still their natural color. We will see what tomorrow brings. I don’t have high hopes of walking out of there without a prescription for estrace tablets.
I like to be prepared, it makes me feel in control. When I started my lupron injections, I loaded up my shot kit with a week’s worth of needles and alcohol pads – and I did that each Saturday night after I depleted the week’s supply. It was sort of fun. It made me feel like we were making progress – that we were moving forward.
When it comes to PIO, I load up the needles differently. I don’t know how long I’ll be doing PIO shots – it all depends on whether or not this cycle works. If it works, I will need 3 months worth of needles (that many would never fit in my kit at once). If it does not work, I will need 17 needles. The last thing I want to do is unload my shot kit if I get a negative beta – therefore I am very strategic so that I don’t have to do that. EVER. I don’t even want to let the needles wait to be unloaded until the next cycle starts because I want to start that next cycle with a positive attitude – a fresh mindset. So I load up the kit with the exact number of needles I will need to get to the beta – and that is all.
I loaded up my kit tonight. There are 17 pink needles (used to draw the PIO into the syringe) and 7 shots with black needles (black needles are used to inject).
Pink = pain
Black = butt
My kit is not large enough to hold 17 shots with black needles, so I load those up weekly. You can bet the farm that when we get to the week of October 21 (beta will likely be on the 24th), I will only be loading up 3 shots with black needles to get me through the night of the 23rd. If I fail the beta on the 24th, there will be no more pink or black needles in my kit – which is how I want it to be.
Ice packs are in the freezer just waiting for Sunday.
Here we go…