I am so relaxed about this cycle, that I was wrong last night when I said my ultrasound and blood work would be today.  They’re tomorrow.  As of right now, my lady bits are still their natural color.  We will see what tomorrow brings.  I don’t have high hopes of walking out of there without a prescription for estrace tablets.

I like to be prepared, it makes me feel in control.  When I started my lupron injections, I loaded up my shot kit with a week’s worth of needles and alcohol pads – and I did that each Saturday night after I depleted the week’s supply.  It was sort of fun.  It made me feel like we were making progress – that we were moving forward.

When it comes to PIO, I load up the needles differently.  I don’t know how long I’ll be doing PIO shots – it all depends on whether or not this cycle works.  If it works, I will need 3 months worth of needles (that many would never fit in my kit at once).  If it does not work, I will need 17 needles. The last thing I want to do is unload my shot kit if I get a negative beta – therefore I am very strategic so that I don’t have to do that.  EVER.  I don’t even want to let the needles wait to be unloaded until the next cycle starts because I want to start that next cycle with a positive attitude – a fresh mindset.  So I load up the kit with the exact number of needles I will need to get to the beta – and that is all.

I loaded up my kit tonight.  There are 17 pink needles (used to draw the PIO into the syringe) and 7 shots with black needles (black needles are used to inject).

Pink = pain

Black = butt

My kit is not large enough to hold 17 shots with black needles, so I load those up weekly.  You can bet the farm that when we get to the week of October 21 (beta will likely be on the 24th), I will only be loading up 3 shots with black needles to get me through the night of the 23rd.  If I fail the beta on the 24th, there will be no more pink or black needles in my kit – which is how I want it to be.

Ice packs are in the freezer just waiting for Sunday.

Here we go…