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Beggars And Choosers


B is out of town… for a week.  Yikes!  Honestly, it won’t be that bad aside from just needing a break here and there.  We have a packed calendar for the week to keep us busy, so that’s good.  It’s hotter than hell here – it was 103* yesterday and will be 105* today – so we need to keep busy indoors.  That’s hard to do, but we’ll make it work.  We’re definitely hitting the pool tomorrow though!

I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately.  My late period (still nothing), lack of a BFP, and sore breasts are entirely to blame for it.  I have never been more than 2-3 days late in my life, so of course I figured that maybe, just maybe, we had a surprise BFP like “everyone else” out there.  I mean – when most people are a week late, that means they’re pregnant.  I should not have let my mind even go there – but I did.  Lesson learned.  The only good thing about AF taking her sweet time is that we may be able to start treatments sooner.  If AF came before 2 weeks post-nursing, then they wanted me to wait another cycle because my hormones would still be out of whack.  If AF waits until after Friday, then we may be able to start right away when she decides to show up.  Watch – I’ll get it on Thursday 😉  Beggars can’t shouldn’t be choosers, so I just need to let AF show up when she does (not that I have a choice) and just be happy that we get to start again shortly thereafter.

Matthew is consistently sleeping until 7:00 AM now – without a little wake-up in the 6:00 hour.  This whole thing worked brilliantly and I’m proud of us – we truly shaped his sleep times into what we wanted.  Of course this morning, though, when he woke up at 7:03, I let him fuss to see if he would go back to sleep.  He did not.  What is it about never being happy – or never having enough sleep?  The poor kid sleeps until 7:00 like I shaped and planned, and now I’m trying to get him to sleep longer?  Why would I want him to sleep longer – all that does is mess up his nap schedule!?  Beggars and choosers… beggars and choosers…  The bottom line is that I stayed up entirely too late and wanted to sleep in myself.  I always stay up too late when B is out of town.

Nothing is really new to report – except that Matthew now hisses like a cat.  We do believe he learned that from Lily, our grumpy, diabetic girl.  We used to think that she truly loved Matthew, but right now, she’s just tolerating him.  He gets too close, and she gets grumpy, and sometimes she hisses.  He now walks around hissing at things – not when he’s angry or anything – just whenever he feels like it.  It is adorable!

In case B reads my blog while he’s away, here are some recent photos of them together.  We miss you, Baby!

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Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

7 thoughts on “Beggars And Choosers

  1. Oh such sweet photos!!! Love it! Dang, my AF finally showed up yesterday and she seems to be trying to make up for the lost time of being late. Not kidding, one of my worst periods ever. Leaking every time I turn around, nausea, light headed, major cramping, and CRYING my damn eyes out over everything!!! Ugh. It’s like she was late because she was saving up extra power. LOL. But at least she’s here now and it will *hopefully* be over soon and moving onto next cycle. Hope you get your AF soon already…. though maybe on Saturday, just to be safe. 😉 It would be awesome to be able to start treatments sooner!

    I am totally with you on the whole sleeping front. I am incredibly lucky that all of my planning and working has also given me kids who sleep well… and it’s still never enough. I was thinking that just this morning, and I went to bed early, but HOW NICE would it be to be able to just sleep in for a few hours on a day like today when I’m all hormonal and sick and stuff. So nice. Of course, then I’d wake up in a panic that my kids had slept too long and there must be something wrong. LOL. I’ll never be happy. 🙂

    Hope you get some “me time” with hubby out of town, though I’m sure you’ll miss him like crazy. Chocolate helps with that. 😉

    • When I did get my AF 5.5 weeks ago, it was a BAD one and I wondered if that was an indicator of how it’s going to be now. Ugh.

      I woke up in a panic on Saturday because Matthew wasn’t up yet and it was 7:45! I totaly get what you’re saying!

      I enjoy “me time.” A lot. I already miss B, but I have some projects I need to get done so it will be good to have the time. And pizza helps as well 😉 HA HA HA!

  2. So, so sorry about AF. Hope it comes quickly so you can get on with things! And the sleeping thing- it’s always such a struggle. G goes to bed around 6 which is fabulous, but then it kills me when he is up at 6 or before.

    • 6:00???? Holy smokes! We are trying to dial it back to 8:00 now because he fusses for 20-30 minutes after going down. He woke up at 8:20 today – I cannot believe it!

      6:00 is too early to get up!

  3. Hahaha! The idea of Matthew hissing like a cat is too cute!!

    I hope AF doesn’t show until tomorrow. It would be nice of her to behave at least in some regard! It’s impossibly hard to learn the lesson that a surprise BFP is not to be had. With my stomach bug I allowed my silly head to “go there.” Not fun.

    • I’m sorry to hear that you went through the same hope as well. UGH. I admitted the other day on someone else’s blog (in the comments) that all of the recent surprise BFP’s caused me to be too hopeful, thinking it could happen to me too.

      Looks like AF is going to wait until tomorrow, or later. So that is good! I just hope my RE says enough time has passed between ending BF-ing and my period. Fingers crossed. I’m ready to put TTC #2 behind me already!

  4. Awww, that slideshow makes ME miss Daddy B!!!

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