I had a bad dream last night. I dreamt that I was pregnant with our third baby, and that I, somehow, forgot to go to the OB for the second half of the pregnancy. And then in the 8th month, I remembered I was pregnant and noticed I had no belly and couldn’t feel the baby moving. We went in for an ultrasound and I woke up as we were waiting to be called back, full of doom and despair because I knew we’d lost the baby. We’d lost our third baby. And having our two healthy boys only relieved the pain a little bit as we waited, before I woke up.
We dropped Matthew off at camp this morning, and as we waited to check him in, there was a mom in front of us with a new baby. Another mom and I marveled at how tiny the baby was, as we held our seemingly massive near-one-year olds. In that moment, reflecting on my dream, I thought to myself, “We’re not done yet.”
B (because of his busy schedule) will be setting up an appointment with our RE for July to discuss a spring transfer.
We’re not done yet.
June 23, 2014 at 10:08 am
I hear ya, lady. I just got an IUD inserted this past week, and I’m feeling very…meh…about it. I really want another one too. 😦 I hope things work out in the spring for your 3rd!
June 23, 2014 at 3:36 pm
Oh I know this feeling…..I have a hard time imagining what it must feel like to be done. I hope you get to feel it one day!
June 23, 2014 at 4:30 pm
I have been selling so much of Monito’s baby stuff, and Mi.Vida is chomping at the bit to get his vasectomy and both things make me feel panicky feelings of regret. I know we need to be done and I’m trying so hard to be okay with it. Sometimes I truly am… other times not so much. I so hope things go well this spring for you and your family finally feels complete. Keeping all appendages crossed.
June 24, 2014 at 9:17 pm
Greetings!! Sneaking back into the bloggy world and seeing if I can keep it up this time. Trying to catch up on all the goings on here… erm, by the way, that Mother’s Day bizniss was not cool!!! And I can empathize — my hubby forgot that it would be my first Mother’s Day and didn’t do/get anything for me. My mother got me a cardigan. That was it. Felt kinda blargh, too… so I hope you guys have resolved that. Really hoping you do try for a third so I can follow along!! Those freaky nightmares are really par for the course when it comes to IFsters, sadly, but you’ve had such good fortune with M and B, I feel like you can do it One. More. Time.!
June 25, 2014 at 8:33 pm
I don’t think I’m done either. I think if I were I wouldn’t think about a third baby as much as I do (which is A LOT).