For those of you interested in keeping tabs on my ability to stick to my fitness plan (you know who you are), you can find it here each week, along with not-so-hot photos of my just-showered, post-run, no makeup self in my weekly photo uniform!  I am doing this not for any of my readers, obviously, but for me.  I need to get in shape.  I need to get back to my pre-baby fitness level.  I NEED to do an adventure race next summer with my husband before we start trying for baby #3.

I cannot believe I’m writing/saying this, but a year from  now, I’ll likely start lupron shots for our first frozen cycle (FET) for Baby #3.  How can that even be just a year away when I have a happy 3 month old sleeping in his room down the hall (in his crib even – for over two hours – HU-freaking-ZZAH!)?  I have a hard time believing it, but it’s true.  We’ll start a month later than we did for Bryson because I will not have another transfer on/around October 12 – I will not have another June 24/25-ish birthday if we can help it!

When I finally got pregnant with Matthew (and I cannot believe I’m putting this on the internet), I weighed 192.6 pounds.  Holy hell!  That was the result of a 20 pound gain from serious fertility drugs and 3 IVF cycles (2 fresh cycles with a FET in between – and I won’t count the IUI cycles because they were just clomid and I don’t know if that causes you to gain weight).  I weighed 167.6 when I got pregnant with Bryson – much better but still not something to be proud of.  My goal for when we get pregnant with #3 (if we’re so lucky, fingers crossed) is to be hovering around 150.  The lightest I ever was, at the peak of my fitness with a very lean BMI for me, was 144.6, and that was super hard to maintain.  Maintaining 150 pounds is not hard if I keep taking care of me.

And that’s what this is all about, right?  Taking care of me.  Doing what I love.  Doing what makes me feel good (without breaking the law – HA!).  Doing the things that teach our boys how to live healthy lives.

It’s amazing how quickly things fall into place when you make an effort to be fit.  I don’t have the urge to eat like an idiot because it will un-do what I’ve worked hard to do.  I’m not totally changing everything, but am making small changes here and there.  For instance, I went to We.ndy’s for lunch yesterday and instead of getting a single with cheese meal, I got their grilled chicken sandwich meal (I love their chicken sandwich).  This morning, instead of going to Star.bucks for my venti cinnamon dolce late and the sausage breakfast sandwich, I went to Mc.d.onalds and got the egg white delight meal (yes, with the hashbrown) because it’s 400 calories versus 900.  I have thought about my choices two days in a row, and even though they’re still not the most stellar of choices, they’re much better than they would be if I wasn’t using the treadmill each day.  In time, I’m sure I’ll skip the fries/hashbrown all together because really, what’s the point?  But please don’t ever expect to read that I’ve given up my Diet C.oke (out of the fountain only) or Diet Pe.psi.  Or DQ.  That is asking all together too much!

I will update my fitness page (also on the main menu of my blog) every week!  I track fitness in 10 week intervals, and this one ends 12/9.  My target weight for that date is 159.6, and that’s being conservative when you look back on my other 10-week efforts.  I’m trying to not go crazy here!  We do have a big family trip to Colorado Springs over Christmas and that gives me another 2 weeks to shed another 3.8 pounds getting me down to a hopeful 155.8 pounds.  That would be awesome, and is totally do-able!

So there it is – all out there.  I’ll try not to post about this because it is super boring to everyone but me.  But if you’re interested, go ahead and check in on my page and harass me.  😉