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Ruined for Nothing


I’ve had a hard day – I mean – the type of day that brings you to your knees.  It all started yesterday, actually, when Matthew’s cold was getting obviously worse and we had a major diaper situation at a restaurant over lunch.  It was not good and our return home was even worse – and neither of us really ever recovered.  Matthew’s cold got worse by the hour and I didn’t get to rest at all until he was in bed.  It was exhausting.

So yesterday was hard, but today was almost impossible.  Matthew feels even worse and is showing it.  He’s actually a really good “sick baby” and still sleeps through the night until his normal wake-up time, but it’s not as good of a sleep so he wakes up cranky.  He was cranky all day and even though he had a 2.5 hour nap, it wasn’t a good nap due to his cough.  He woke up 3 times and cried a bit.  It was heartbreaking.  Dinner was a challenge because he doesn’t want to eat solid food right now, which makes me think he has a sore throat.  Matthew threw his chicken at me from the moment I put it in front of him and even refused his grapes, which he usually devours. He had only cottage cheese and veggie pouches tonight for dinner – which I’m ashamed of.  He’s a sad baby  😦

To make the day worse, I got a bill from for $264 even though we cancelled service on 10/11 and paid in full before that date.  I absolutely lost my shit over this because we even have receipts saying we owe them nothing – and calling to talk to them takes a freaking lifetime.  I spent 10 minutes on hold (shorter than I expected) and then talked with the gal who insisted on talking with B since it was his name on the account.  I explained to her that she would much rather discuss this with me because he hates them more than I do – so she talked to me.  I swore on the phone – not my proudest moments, but I am so sick of this cable company screwing everyone simply because they can.  I swore several times.  It wasn’t good.

So I’ve had a rough day… and it was after the call with that I realized why I was in such a bad mood.

It wasn’t Matthew’s crankiness.

It wasn’t the bill (even though, HOLY HELL, that made my mood way worse).

It wasn’t my lack of rest.

It wasn’t because B is out-of-town tonight.

It was because I needed to give myself my own PIO shot for the first time (aside from the three I did in my thigh while pregnant with Matthew and OMG that was a mistake.  OUCH!).

I watched a couple of videos during the day, trying to get pumped up for it, but the videos scared me even more.  I was trying to figure out who I would call to do my shot.  The neighbor next door who is a nurse?  My friend who did all of her own?  My friend’s husband who’s a doctor?  B’s coworker’s husband who’s a nurse?  I would have felt bad springing my need on any of them, so I wondered if I should suck it up and do it myself.

I watched Keikos’ video and read through the comments.  I noticed that Shelley commented a few weeks ago that she had to do her own PIO shots because her husband would be out-of-town.  So… I emailed her.

I just love this community!  Shelley emailed me back right away with a step-by-step description of what to do.  I read it, and thought, “you can do this.”  She was so helpful and pumped me up so much – to the point that I just wanted to get to it so I could say it was done!

I did it.  And it was no big deal.  It did not hurt.  There was no blood.  I didn’t throw up.

(But my hands were still shaking a bit afterwards.)

An entire day ruined for nothing!






Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

16 thoughts on “Ruined for Nothing

  1. OH HONEY!!! I’m so sorry…I had to give myself all my shots because my husband is a self admitted wuss. It wasn’t easy, but I did it…I’m so proud of you and I’m glad you made it through. Now, you have done it, not in the thigh (seriously, OUCH! I don’t know how you did that more than once), you never have to worry about it again. You know you can do it!!! Good job and I hope tomorrow will be a better day! Hope Matthew feels better.

    • You know, I’m relieved to have done it. I need to know how to do it – just in case an unexpected need comes up. I actually opted to do one the other night to practice the left side – to make sure I can do it when B is out of town. It went well until I moved it – now I have a bruise. BUT I DID IT!

  2. Oh crap! I’m so sorry to hear that Matthew is feeling worse. 😦 I hope today he is much improved!!

    You are right – this community seriously rocks. Good for you for figuring out what was the real culprit behind the shitty mood and then figuring out how to work through it. I’m glad that it ended up being NBD. And today is a new day – and a FRIDAY at that!

    Hoping today is worlds better, my friend.

  3. So glad I could help! 🙂

  4. Wow that is a tough day.
    glad you did it and it went well!!!!!!
    hope matthew feels better!

  5. Okay, I had to laugh at the cable situation, b/c I told DirecTV the exact same thing when they were refusing to talk to me. 🙂

    On a more important note, WAY TO GO at giving yourself the shot!!! I never did PIO shots (my doc had me on supps) but I did all my own injectibles during the IUI cycle b/c my husband was working on the oil rigs, and as scared as I was, it wasn’t that bad once I had done it once. So proud of you for tackling that on your own, and so proud of this community for being there when you needed us!

  6. I’ve nominated you for a Leibster Award. Check out my blog if you want to participate. 🙂

  7. That does sound hard. All those things combined in one day is enough to send someone to the couch with a carton of ice cream and a good movie, but you kept pushing on. And one cute little boy helped too I’m sure. I’m so glad you were able to talk to someone about how to do the shot, and in the end it didn’t seem so bad. The anticipation is always the worst!

  8. Oh my sweet friend i’m sorry you’ve had a crappy few days!! I wish I could give you a hug – cyber hugs to you. You know when i see you you are always so positive and i know you try to be even tho you don’t feel like it. You can be poopy with me, no need to be strong. and next time i’ll give you a shot but i’ll have to lie down while doing it in case i pass out 🙂 xoxox

  9. Ohh I am so sorry to hear about such an awful day, but glad it turned out well in the end. Good for you!! You should be very proud as I am sure that must have been tough.

    Hope Matthew is feeling better now!!

  10. Man, I did sub-Q shots but not PIOs, those are a whole other deal! I’m sorry your anxiety ate up so much of your day, but I’m really glad you got past it and did the shot. EMPOWERING! You are awesome! ❤

  11. I’m so sorry you had such a rough day. I hope the rest of your weekend turns out better and you and Matthew get lots of rest!

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