All the Sun For You

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24 Hours


Matthew has been walking for 24 hours.  He is becoming much better at it as the hours minutes tick by.  I thought that maybe he’d revert back to crawling once we got home, but no – he is insistent on perfecting his new skill!

I have been crying for 24 hours.  The sobbing comes and goes – it comes while I’m nursing him, or when a lullaby that sounds like the music in his birth video comes on, or while B is taking photos of him eating table food, or when he’s enthusiastically turning the pages of his books and giggling at the pictures.  I am a wreck.  I don’t want my baby to grow up.

Last night in the hotel, after Matthew fell asleep, B and I whispered to each other how amazing this all is – how fun it is to watch his eyes as he figures out how to move his body, how he has a new giggle that came out of nowhere, how big he’s getting so fast.  B mentioned that we’ll just have to have another baby soon.  I asked if we could have two more.  He said that we should start with the next one and go from there  😉

But I told B tonight that it’s not that I want another baby.  I want Matthew to stay the wonderful baby that he is.  I just want more time with my baby  😦

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Author: Courtney

Hi, there, I’m Courtney. I never planned to stay home with my kids, but I got sucked into motherhood when my first baby came into our lives after years of infertility and multiple rounds of IVF. His brother followed closely behind, something we didn’t plan on after having such a rough road with achieving parenthood the first time around. My boys are IVF cycle twins, conceived on the same day but born two years and one day apart (they were both transferred on the same day in October, but with two years between them). My boys are the best of friends and my husband is a terrific husband, father, and most importantly… friend. He fully supported my desire to stay home (“I just wanted it to be your idea and not mine, I totally want you to stay home and raise our kids!”) and encourages me in everything I do. I am a lover of projects, spreadsheets, fitness, healthy cooking and eating, crafts, selling my stuff on FB (HA!), and the outdoors. If I’m active, I’m pretty darn happy!

3 thoughts on “24 Hours

  1. I’m definitely a little afraid for that day to come….

    He is SO adorable!

  2. Awww!!!! What a big boy!!

    You hit the nail on the head – H is mastering new skills in leaps and bounds, and it’s exciting but tough on a momma’s heart. My little buddy is growing up so fast. Too fast.

  3. Oh sweetie, it is so hard. So many milestones for you and Matthew this month! I’m going to echo what SRB said in your earlier post and say yay for even more fun in new ways with Matthew. 🙂

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